Happy New Year friends!
You may be someone with a page full of resolutions by now, or you may have none at all. Either way, I hope you feel inspired in some way for the year to come. Inspiration keeps us moving forward. I’ve felt first hand the depression that comes when you don’t have a goal to work towards. It’s unsettling and not an enjoyable way to live.
This year I am pursuing a writing goal that challenges every part of me. You see, I am someone who sticks to their comfort zone wholeheartedly. I pursue things I know I am good at…and stay away from everything else. I was a great student, so I went to school. I was really good at Math, so that became my major. I had a natural way with kids so I became an elementary school teacher.
Now, though, I am focusing on writing. No one is giving me grades on my work and telling me I’m doing a great job. 99% of the time I write with a voice in my head that tells me how bad I am at writing. But I’m powering through these doubts. Some days I feel good about what I am doing but most days I think I am fooling myself, trying to be a writer.
I’m happier for this pursuit – following a passion that scares me. It is taking a lot of guts to sit down and write, to share that writing, and to dream about maybe, someday, publishing a book. All of this is hard for me to do. It all seems a little crazy to me. But I’m doing it anyway because that line that has become my theme through all of this keeps coming back to me: “You must do the thing you think you cannot do.” (Thank you Eleanor).
This might pan out to be nothing more than a hobby. But I’m inspired by Florence Foster Jenkins – known as the world’s worst opera singer – who once said “People may say I can’t sing, but no one can ever say I didn’t sing.”
I want to get to my deathbed with the satisfaction of knowing that I wrote. Through the fear and the doubts and the overwhelming feelings of inadequacy. I want to know that this didn’t stop me. And the best way to do that, is to just keep writing. One small word at a time.
Here’s to bravery in 2017:)