I haven’t been posting on here very often, which you may or may not have noticed. But I have been busy writing. I feel things are changing for me, a transformation I can’t exactly explain or put my finger on.
For the past year I’ve had it in my mind that I’d love to write a book. Since putting that idea down onto paper, I’ve been on a search. A search to figure out what, exactly, I want to say. The answer is coming to me in bits and pieces, in moments of clarity and utter confusion. Throughout all of this I have kept writing…it just hasn’t always shown up on the blog.
I appreciate what this blog has done for me and my growth as a writer. I appreciate the comments you’ve shared, or the likes you’ve clicked. But to be honest, I’ve often felt discouraged. Is anyone even reading this? The answer is unknown to me.
I take the kids to the playground, shop for groceries, go for a walk, grab a coffee with a friend, and every day the idea sparks: Oh that’d be great to write about on the blog! And I jot it down in my notebook or add it to the Notes app on my phone. But by the time I sit down at the computer, if I do actually get my butt in the chair, I’ve lost the motivation. What’s the point? I wonder. Will anyone read it other than my parents, my sister and my devoted grandmother? I have many reasons to write for myself, and because of this I don’t stop, but I don’t have many reasons to continue on with this blog.
But I’m not ready to let it go…yet. I think I just need a slight change in focus. Before I do this, though, I need your help. Because the thing is, what I’d really love is to get to know YOU. (If there’s anyone on the other side of this screen, that is). I wish I could flash you a big smile and say “Welcome! Thank-you so much for coming!” like I would to anyone I’ve invited into my home. I wish I could make you a cup of tea and sit across the couch from you and ask you all of these questions to discover what your passions are, what fears you have, what phase of life you’re in. All the while nodding and maybe even letting out an “Oh, me too!” along the way.
So here’s the next best thing: an online survey. (It’ll only take a few minutes, promise). Maybe I’ll discover that wow, there are people actually reading this thing, and wow, we have a whole lot to offer one another.
I’d love that.
So, if you’re out there, could you spare me a few minutes of your day?